Sunday, June 2, 2013
Selamat Pengantin Baru Sahabat!
Alhamdulillah, pada 1 Jun lepas Dayana Amira bt Rosli selamat diijabkabulkan dengan pasangannya iaitu Mohd Faiz b Radzi (sorry kalau salah eja nama >.<) Kalau dulu dayana la penumpang setia skuter ego S aku pegi fakulti, cafe etc, peneman setia naik bas sama2 ulang alik fakulti, dan peneman study tengah2 malam sekali dengan Semah sepanjang menginap kolej KTHO. Tapi aku rasa, most of the time macam main je time study malam2 tu. Main bubbles la, SMS orang kacau2 la,pastu alih2 dah subuh. Sedih pulak rasanya T_T
Paling best time kenduri dapat jumpa Asmah dengan Syaz. Rupa2nya dah 3 taun tak jumpe Si semah ni. Tapi haritu rasa mcm baru je lepas jumpa semah. Cepatnya masa berlalu. Takpe semah, nanti bulan 9 kita gi honeymoon ye. Hikhik. Berbalik pada dayana, disebabkan kitorg tengok seluruh proses dari dia mekap, bersiap,akad nikah sampai la ke kenduri, so bila dah balik ni rasa mcm something missing. Perasaan yang sama bila dah follow cite Supernatural selama 8 season, alih2 last week dah final episode. Rasa kehilangan sesuatu. Rasa kosong je hidup ni. Aku rasa perasaan ni mesti lg teruk lepas syaz dah kawen nanti. Sobs T_T Dan aku rindu pulak dengan Syaz and Semah. Ntah bila boleh jumpe lagi. And now, i'm back to my real life. Life yang takde hiburan dan sahabat disisi. Sedihnya rasa.
Apa2 pun, selamat pengantin baru Dayana! Semoga bahagia sehingga ke Jannah dan jangan garang2 sangat ye. Haha.
Monday, April 22, 2013
22 April 2013
S,
Hari ni sepatutnya jumpa dia yang dah lama saya tak jumpa. Semangat saya bersiap tadi. Saya dengar ada sms sampai. Saya ingat dia bagi sms kata dah bertolak. Saya biar je sms tu, tak baca lagi. Saya teruskan bersiap. Pastu bila saya baca, rupa2nya dia kata cancel. Saya kecewa sangat. Walaupun nak jumpa kejap je, tapi saya tetap rasa bersemangat td. Dia kata takleh jumpa sebab hujan. Tapi tempat saya tak hujan pun. Sampailah saya kat kulim, tak hujan pun. Tapi saya reply "okay". Malas nak cakap banyak. Sebab saya tak suka orang cancel plan at very last minute. Saya dah tak ingat ini yang kali keberapa dah jadi macam ni. Sepanjang drive td, saya fikir semua yang terjadi dalam hidup saya. Dari dulu lagi saya selalu cakap "Mungkin saya memang ditakdirkan hidup dalam keadaan mcm ni". Dia pun tak cakap sorry kat saya. Saya pasrah :)
S,
sampai je Kulim td, terus saya ke Silterra. Saya sedih. So, kalau saya buat kerja, saya tak sedih dah. Nampaknya, next week kena la saya kerja lebih masa lagi. Kalau saya sibuk, saya takde la ingat benda2 sedih ni. Balik keje lambat, sampai rumah terus siap2 untuk tido. Jadi saya takde masa nak fikir bukan2. Betul tak? :)
S,
Agaknya sampai bila ye saya nak mcm ni? Kalau saya luahkan apa saya nak, apa yang saya fikir dan apa yang saya rasa, saya akan menyusahkan semua orang. Jadi, saya terpaksa simpan semuanya. Saya terpaksa menurut apa yang mereka nak. Sejujurnya saya taktau saya bertahan atas alasan apa. Saya dah tak kenal siapa diri saya sekarang. :(
Okaylah, saya nak solat. Assalamualaikum. :)
Hari ni sepatutnya jumpa dia yang dah lama saya tak jumpa. Semangat saya bersiap tadi. Saya dengar ada sms sampai. Saya ingat dia bagi sms kata dah bertolak. Saya biar je sms tu, tak baca lagi. Saya teruskan bersiap. Pastu bila saya baca, rupa2nya dia kata cancel. Saya kecewa sangat. Walaupun nak jumpa kejap je, tapi saya tetap rasa bersemangat td. Dia kata takleh jumpa sebab hujan. Tapi tempat saya tak hujan pun. Sampailah saya kat kulim, tak hujan pun. Tapi saya reply "okay". Malas nak cakap banyak. Sebab saya tak suka orang cancel plan at very last minute. Saya dah tak ingat ini yang kali keberapa dah jadi macam ni. Sepanjang drive td, saya fikir semua yang terjadi dalam hidup saya. Dari dulu lagi saya selalu cakap "Mungkin saya memang ditakdirkan hidup dalam keadaan mcm ni". Dia pun tak cakap sorry kat saya. Saya pasrah :)
S,
sampai je Kulim td, terus saya ke Silterra. Saya sedih. So, kalau saya buat kerja, saya tak sedih dah. Nampaknya, next week kena la saya kerja lebih masa lagi. Kalau saya sibuk, saya takde la ingat benda2 sedih ni. Balik keje lambat, sampai rumah terus siap2 untuk tido. Jadi saya takde masa nak fikir bukan2. Betul tak? :)
S,
Agaknya sampai bila ye saya nak mcm ni? Kalau saya luahkan apa saya nak, apa yang saya fikir dan apa yang saya rasa, saya akan menyusahkan semua orang. Jadi, saya terpaksa simpan semuanya. Saya terpaksa menurut apa yang mereka nak. Sejujurnya saya taktau saya bertahan atas alasan apa. Saya dah tak kenal siapa diri saya sekarang. :(
Okaylah, saya nak solat. Assalamualaikum. :)
Sunday, April 14, 2013
April - Meaningful month
Cepat cepat. Sementara aku masih ingat lagi event2 yang baru terjadi baik catat laju2 dalam belog. Gitu katanyewwww. Haha.
6/4/2013
Hari pertunangan achik dengan Aisyah. Alhamdulillah semua berjalan lancar. Tersangat lancar sampai sejam lebih je proses bincang2 tu. Haha. Kesian Aisyah. Mekap dua jam, orang datang sejam je. Sabar la noks. Nanti kawen mekap sejam je k. XD Semua adik beradik aku balik kampung and for the first time dapat bergambar dengan ke enam2 kami termasuk ipar dan bakal ipar dan anak sedara, Aiman. Gahhh, rindu Aiman! Oh, 6 haribulan ni jugak birthday along. Mama tempah kek bubuh nama aku dengan Along, tp aku suruh Along je jadi center of attention. Taknak aku. Buat malu je. Haha
Kak neesha (kakak ipar), Aisyah (bakal kakak ipar yg muda dari iols T_T) dengan kak Fara (cousin)
Aiman aiman aimannnn! dengan kwn sama tahun lahir.Jap,anak sepupu dengan anak sepupu jadi hubungan ape eh. @_@
Sesi menyarung cincin :)
Hantaran dari pihak perempuan
Hantara dari pihak lelaki
Aiman lagiiiiii. Haha
Pasukan gempur. Gigih 3 orang belakang tuuuu
Gambar lengkap satu family (Tanpa abah)
Aiman,mulut jgn muncung sgt pls.
8/4/2013
Hari aku kerja. Dengan letih pasal kenduri semua, pastu keje lak menimbun. Kena setel semua hari ni jugak sebab esoknya sampai khamis aku cuti lagi. Jangan tanya cuti apa. Susah nk explain. Haha.
Pastu, bos panggil untuk Annual Review. Kat tangan dia ada sampul putih. Ingat surat amende. Rupa2nya surat promotion and salary increment. Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah :) In shaa Allah,kalau buat kerja dengan ikhlas, tanpa perlu menunjuk, Allah akan balas dengan setimpalnya :) . Jangan komplen kat twitter pls. Annyoing tau tak! (tibe2)
And now, i am Senior Process Engineer 1 XD
Lastly,gambar aiman lagi. Hahahah.
6/4/2013
Hari pertunangan achik dengan Aisyah. Alhamdulillah semua berjalan lancar. Tersangat lancar sampai sejam lebih je proses bincang2 tu. Haha. Kesian Aisyah. Mekap dua jam, orang datang sejam je. Sabar la noks. Nanti kawen mekap sejam je k. XD Semua adik beradik aku balik kampung and for the first time dapat bergambar dengan ke enam2 kami termasuk ipar dan bakal ipar dan anak sedara, Aiman. Gahhh, rindu Aiman! Oh, 6 haribulan ni jugak birthday along. Mama tempah kek bubuh nama aku dengan Along, tp aku suruh Along je jadi center of attention. Taknak aku. Buat malu je. Haha
Kak neesha (kakak ipar), Aisyah (bakal kakak ipar yg muda dari iols T_T) dengan kak Fara (cousin)
Aiman aiman aimannnn! dengan kwn sama tahun lahir.Jap,anak sepupu dengan anak sepupu jadi hubungan ape eh. @_@
Sesi menyarung cincin :)
Hantaran dari pihak perempuan
Hantara dari pihak lelaki
Aiman lagiiiiii. Haha
Pasukan gempur. Gigih 3 orang belakang tuuuu
Gambar lengkap satu family (Tanpa abah)
Aiman,mulut jgn muncung sgt pls.
8/4/2013
Hari aku kerja. Dengan letih pasal kenduri semua, pastu keje lak menimbun. Kena setel semua hari ni jugak sebab esoknya sampai khamis aku cuti lagi. Jangan tanya cuti apa. Susah nk explain. Haha.
Pastu, bos panggil untuk Annual Review. Kat tangan dia ada sampul putih. Ingat surat amende. Rupa2nya surat promotion and salary increment. Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah :) In shaa Allah,kalau buat kerja dengan ikhlas, tanpa perlu menunjuk, Allah akan balas dengan setimpalnya :) . Jangan komplen kat twitter pls. Annyoing tau tak! (tibe2)
And now, i am Senior Process Engineer 1 XD
Lastly,gambar aiman lagi. Hahahah.
Saturday, March 23, 2013
March and Love
Errrr, mcm geli pulak tajuk. Haha. Tapi bagi aku bulan March macam bulan yang penuh kasih sayang sebab ramai orang kawen time ni. Boleh terima ke alasan ni? Haha. Whatever. Tapi betul la. Abang aku pun kawen bulan March. Pastu yang latest, eh tak jadi lagi. Yang latest-bakal kawen ialah Din. Partner sama umur, sama shift, sama faham joke, sama2 usha orang lalu lalang depan cube kitorg, sama2 orang Perak and etc. Tapi dia terlebih ramah dengan gila dari aku. Haha. Kenduri dia 30 March uols. Terharu iols. Tapi tak sure boleh pegi ke idokkk. Apa2 pun, tahniah Din. Dalam seminggu before dia nak cuti kawen tu, macam happy terlebih pulak budak ni. Hyperactive semacam. Gembira betul dia. Masa last day haritu lagi la. Asyik keje nak nyembang and mengarut je, and sape mangsa kena layan? Aku ler, sape lagi. Udahnye tempat aku sebelah dia je. Nak toleh belakang, Som tak datang. Dia attack orang sebelah kanan dia ni la T_T Tapi, rasa mcm bertuah sungguh tunang dia. Memang nampak sgt kat mata dia yang dia tengah bahagia and in love. Time dia sembang dgn tunang dia on the phone pun, dengar mcm sweet sangat. Sorry Din, tercuri dengar. Sape suruh ko duduk tak sampai sedepa dari aku >.< Aku rasa, that is the sweetest moment ever. Aku ni jarang nak cakap sesuatu benda tu sweet. Kalau setakat tgk Aaron Aziz dalam Ombak Rindu ke, Adam dan Hawa ke, urghh. Tolong. Tak rasa langsung sweet tu. Anyway, aku tak tengok pun cerita2 tu. Saja bagi contoh. Cerita2 cheesy mcm tu aku tak layan. Tolong la. Tapi, si Din punya situasi memang sweet betul. Style kena tgk sendiri, pastu rasa sweet tu sampai ke hati sampai kita pun tersenyum sendiri. Ini la first time aku tengok sinar cahaya cinta kat lelaki. Apsal time tulis ayat tu aku mcm terbayang situasi dalam cerita Hanakimi. Ala, yang laki sorg tu boleh tengok aura kat orang lain. Laki tu dah la berlakon dalam cite Kamen Rider Kabuto. Sama la jugak dengan Nanba senpai tu. Ok, melalut kamen rider pulak dahhhh. Haha. So,analoginya, aku boleh nampak aura pink kat sekitar Din. Wohooo.
Akhir kata, tahniah Din sebab berjaya membawa hubungan ko ke level yang lebih diberkati Allah SWT. Dengar cite bercinta dari zaman skola uols. Hihi. Tapi cmni ah, kawen awal sgt. Nanti mesti orang2 kat office attack aku pulak. Nasib badan T_T
Akhir kata, tahniah Din sebab berjaya membawa hubungan ko ke level yang lebih diberkati Allah SWT. Dengar cite bercinta dari zaman skola uols. Hihi. Tapi cmni ah, kawen awal sgt. Nanti mesti orang2 kat office attack aku pulak. Nasib badan T_T
Friday, March 8, 2013
International Women's Day
Jumaat hari tu hari wanita sedunia. I dont care. Because last three days was the worst day of my life.
I've never thought that people will simply judge me solely based on my project's progress. Yes, i'm talking about my work here.
I dont know what else should i do. They asked me to do some of the A's (bukan nama sebenar) task because she is busy with the so-called big issue on her process. Ok, i'm willing to help her. After all, i was the ex-owner of that process. I've been doing all those stuff that are not related to my current process just for the sake of helping her. And somehow, i neglected my own project. It was on hold for a while. I must admit that this is my own mistake. I cant focus on that project. I just cant. You know the feeling of handling two totally different type of process and at the same time people keep pushing you to hit the dateline. It's like you have to cut your brain into two sections, so that they can work and think individually. I dont expect you to understand. I know that you dont even care. Just let me have some space to let all those feelings out of my chest. Because they are eating me up :'(
And last Thursday, they were questioning about my effectiveness. They were wondering why my project has been slowing down lately. What should i say? I have try my best to fulfill their request. They dont even care about the works i've done for A that have been occupied me. They dont care about all those things that i've done previously. I should just say no when they were asking for my help. I should just say no when they keep transferring me to different process ownership. I should say "Please, leave me alone. I was just 5 months old with this new process, and you expect me to master all? The last owner was given 1 week to pass down everything to me. I was struggling to understand this process by myself. I'm learning everything by myself. Do you even care about that?" But again, they are the bosses. I am just the slave to the company. What else can i do.
I just hope that there is someone,somewhere that didnt judge people by eyes, instead he/she judge people by heart and brain. I am sick with people taking me for granted. I am sick of everything. If appreciating me is something too much to ask for, then just leave me alone.
I've never thought that people will simply judge me solely based on my project's progress. Yes, i'm talking about my work here.
I dont know what else should i do. They asked me to do some of the A's (bukan nama sebenar) task because she is busy with the so-called big issue on her process. Ok, i'm willing to help her. After all, i was the ex-owner of that process. I've been doing all those stuff that are not related to my current process just for the sake of helping her. And somehow, i neglected my own project. It was on hold for a while. I must admit that this is my own mistake. I cant focus on that project. I just cant. You know the feeling of handling two totally different type of process and at the same time people keep pushing you to hit the dateline. It's like you have to cut your brain into two sections, so that they can work and think individually. I dont expect you to understand. I know that you dont even care. Just let me have some space to let all those feelings out of my chest. Because they are eating me up :'(
And last Thursday, they were questioning about my effectiveness. They were wondering why my project has been slowing down lately. What should i say? I have try my best to fulfill their request. They dont even care about the works i've done for A that have been occupied me. They dont care about all those things that i've done previously. I should just say no when they were asking for my help. I should just say no when they keep transferring me to different process ownership. I should say "Please, leave me alone. I was just 5 months old with this new process, and you expect me to master all? The last owner was given 1 week to pass down everything to me. I was struggling to understand this process by myself. I'm learning everything by myself. Do you even care about that?" But again, they are the bosses. I am just the slave to the company. What else can i do.
I just hope that there is someone,somewhere that didnt judge people by eyes, instead he/she judge people by heart and brain. I am sick with people taking me for granted. I am sick of everything. If appreciating me is something too much to ask for, then just leave me alone.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Relationship
"Personally I believe a person need to make themselves whole first in terms of social life, finance, career and maturity, then they're in the right state of mind to decide if they're ready for a relationship.
Most people jump in a relationship hoping to find that one person to make them whole, hence when the fog is lifted the disappointment starts to sink in. Most people can't cherish their partners because they didn't fix the issues with themselves to begin with.
If you constantly can't live with your own skin, what makes you think you can manage another person in your life? Constantly needing to receive validation from others signals that you're insecure about yourself to begin with" - anonymous,2013.
Most people jump in a relationship hoping to find that one person to make them whole, hence when the fog is lifted the disappointment starts to sink in. Most people can't cherish their partners because they didn't fix the issues with themselves to begin with.
If you constantly can't live with your own skin, what makes you think you can manage another person in your life? Constantly needing to receive validation from others signals that you're insecure about yourself to begin with" - anonymous,2013.
Friday, January 18, 2013
2012 in memory
Assalamualaikum...
Dah nak habis bulan Januari 2013,baru la aku nak tulis post ni. Uhuks. Saja sekadar nak cukup syarat,nak mengimbau kembali kenangan2 dan pencapaian2 sepanjang 2012. *ade keeee?* haha
Takde ape pun perkembangan drastik dalam hidup aku. Status masih bujang. *forever bujang :( * Masih lagi setia dengan Silterra. Masih lagi tiada smartphone. Masih lagi same old baishatul. Social life lagi la tak berkembang :(
Bab pekerjaan, masih belum tau lagi sebab review dlm bulan 3 nanti. Tapi awal tahun 2012, bos bagi kejutan. Aku ingatkan performance aku so-so je. Tapi dia cakap i am one of the best. So he gave me "high performance" during my last review. Alhamdulillah. Tapi itu review untuk 2011. 2012 belum tahu. From my own observations, most of my projects completed. And i've been transferred to new process (which i'm still learning and exploring) and i must say i enjoy this new experience. Tapi this new process mcm not much issue like my last process. So no big improvement project needed. So far ada dua projects which require a lot of evaluations and testings. It's ok. I think i can handle that. My last boss has been promoted to be our Head Of Department, so our super senior engineer,has become my new boss. Both of them are good friends but with different personalities. One is down to earth type, less talking more working, has systematic working style, and very soft spoken. The other one is genius but talk too much. More outgoing but a bit 'cakap besar' type. I must say that my respect goes to the first one maybe because i used to work with the second one since the first day i'm at Silterra so feels like he is one of my colleague,not my boss. The later one is my current boss indeed. @_@ And lately i always express my unsatisfactory to him. Haha. Rebellious baishatul :P
So, on 2012 few of my friends get married. Ok tak ingat sape sebab ramai sgt and confused dengan taun 2011 punya wedding ceremony but the closest one is Syamira. Happy for you. Kurangkan membebel tau. Haha. And i believe more and more of my friends will be get married on this year (2013). Dont ask about me. I dont even sure about my life plan. Sad, but that's the truth. Kalau ikutkan my initial life plan,which i did when i was 17, the ideal age for me to get married is when i'm 26. But Allah knows best. :) I dont want to question that. But i always pray supaya Allah dekatkan my jodoh,supaya hubungan yang masih tidak halal ini cepat2 jadi halal, supaya aku tidak menanggung lebih banyak dosa dengan meneruskan hubungan ni. I've been waiting for too long, and i'm not sure how much longer should i wait. Yes,i have options. I can simply end this relationship and looking forward to more barakah relationship, but i guess my iman is still too weak. I dont dare to do that :( Ampunkan aku ya Allah :'(
At the end of 2012 which is on 12/12/12 to be exact, dapat anak sedara! syukur Alhamdulillah. It's a boy, and i'm sure my brother will shape him to be like him. Marvel Superhero freak. Haha. Tak sampai 2 minggu budak tu lahir dah suruh pakai baju Superman -_-'
Anyway, as for 2013, i'm thinking of changing my lifestyle. I'm 25 this year, and should be more mature, more independent, stronger heart and improve my ibadah. There is something that i always wanted to do, but hesitate for no reason even though it's a must for muslimah and alhamdulillah i've started to do that now. Hopefully i will istiqamah in doing that till the day i die :)
So, i wish happy 2013 to everyone, improve ourselves, improve our ibadah, improve our iman and be closer to Allah. In shaa Allah. And please pray for me as well :) And here i share my nephew's picture with his superman shirt :)
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Dah nak habis bulan Januari 2013,baru la aku nak tulis post ni. Uhuks. Saja sekadar nak cukup syarat,nak mengimbau kembali kenangan2 dan pencapaian2 sepanjang 2012. *ade keeee?* haha
Takde ape pun perkembangan drastik dalam hidup aku. Status masih bujang. *forever bujang :( * Masih lagi setia dengan Silterra. Masih lagi tiada smartphone. Masih lagi same old baishatul. Social life lagi la tak berkembang :(
Bab pekerjaan, masih belum tau lagi sebab review dlm bulan 3 nanti. Tapi awal tahun 2012, bos bagi kejutan. Aku ingatkan performance aku so-so je. Tapi dia cakap i am one of the best. So he gave me "high performance" during my last review. Alhamdulillah. Tapi itu review untuk 2011. 2012 belum tahu. From my own observations, most of my projects completed. And i've been transferred to new process (which i'm still learning and exploring) and i must say i enjoy this new experience. Tapi this new process mcm not much issue like my last process. So no big improvement project needed. So far ada dua projects which require a lot of evaluations and testings. It's ok. I think i can handle that. My last boss has been promoted to be our Head Of Department, so our super senior engineer,has become my new boss. Both of them are good friends but with different personalities. One is down to earth type, less talking more working, has systematic working style, and very soft spoken. The other one is genius but talk too much. More outgoing but a bit 'cakap besar' type. I must say that my respect goes to the first one maybe because i used to work with the second one since the first day i'm at Silterra so feels like he is one of my colleague,not my boss. The later one is my current boss indeed. @_@ And lately i always express my unsatisfactory to him. Haha. Rebellious baishatul :P
So, on 2012 few of my friends get married. Ok tak ingat sape sebab ramai sgt and confused dengan taun 2011 punya wedding ceremony but the closest one is Syamira. Happy for you. Kurangkan membebel tau. Haha. And i believe more and more of my friends will be get married on this year (2013). Dont ask about me. I dont even sure about my life plan. Sad, but that's the truth. Kalau ikutkan my initial life plan,which i did when i was 17, the ideal age for me to get married is when i'm 26. But Allah knows best. :) I dont want to question that. But i always pray supaya Allah dekatkan my jodoh,supaya hubungan yang masih tidak halal ini cepat2 jadi halal, supaya aku tidak menanggung lebih banyak dosa dengan meneruskan hubungan ni. I've been waiting for too long, and i'm not sure how much longer should i wait. Yes,i have options. I can simply end this relationship and looking forward to more barakah relationship, but i guess my iman is still too weak. I dont dare to do that :( Ampunkan aku ya Allah :'(
At the end of 2012 which is on 12/12/12 to be exact, dapat anak sedara! syukur Alhamdulillah. It's a boy, and i'm sure my brother will shape him to be like him. Marvel Superhero freak. Haha. Tak sampai 2 minggu budak tu lahir dah suruh pakai baju Superman -_-'
Anyway, as for 2013, i'm thinking of changing my lifestyle. I'm 25 this year, and should be more mature, more independent, stronger heart and improve my ibadah. There is something that i always wanted to do, but hesitate for no reason even though it's a must for muslimah and alhamdulillah i've started to do that now. Hopefully i will istiqamah in doing that till the day i die :)
So, i wish happy 2013 to everyone, improve ourselves, improve our ibadah, improve our iman and be closer to Allah. In shaa Allah. And please pray for me as well :) And here i share my nephew's picture with his superman shirt :)
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